Book Review: Queerly Beloved by Susie Dumond

 

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Thank you to NetGalley and Random House for allowing me to read this ARC!

Content Warning: homophobia, misogyny, forced outing.

The only thing Amy Fariner loves more than baking is weddings. Working at a Christian bakery has forced Amy to become straight-passing "Amelia," and while she secretly dreams of being able to be her genuine self at work, she is afraid of what might happen should her coworkers or ultrareligious boss discover she's a lesbian. It's also 2013, and Amy is caught up in the conflict of loving weddings while being unable to marry once she finds the woman of her dreams. And it looks like she might've met that woman: Charley, an engineer who works in oil and gas, shows up at the bakery, and Amy is instantly smitten. When things do end up going wrong at Amy's baking job, she turns to the world of professional bridesmaids. But in order to make a life for herself -- one that she truly, really wants -- Amy has to decide: is it worth hiding herself in order to make others happy?

Going into this, I expected it to be more on the romcom side of things, but what I ended up finding here was something quite different. Instead, this is more focused on Amy's life, her ups and downs, and in particular, her struggle in trying to both find out her authentic self and who exactly she wants to be in this world. There is a romance, with Charley, who meets Amy by chance at the bakery she ends up being fired from (no spoilers here: it's in the summary). Sadly, the romance isn't quite as dreamy or steamy as I'd hoped for; Charley lacks much character outside of being a whip-smart, butch engineer, and I think that she could've benefited from deeper development of her personality and, perhaps, some flaws to make her more interesting. 

The rest of the cast comes off as strangely stereotypical, especially Amy's two best friends, Damien and Joel. They're a couple, and in fact, it's hard to really tell them apart -- and they serve the role of "gay best friend" with a lack of heart that left me feeling a bit confused. It's always odd to find stereotypes like these in books about gay people written by gay people, but regardless, I wished that the two of them could have grown beyond their ill-fitting roles. I liked that Joel ends up challenging Amy and speaking up for himself, and I very much enjoyed the way that things turned out between the three of them and how their dynamics ended up developing, but I still felt as if there could've been so much more to them beyond going to pride with pink, sparkly capes, watching HGTV, and providing "sassy" remarks.

Speaking honestly, though, I actually ended up not minding that the centering of the story was more on Amy and her self-discovery, rather than the romantic aspects of her (slightly tumultuous) relationship with Charley. It was slightly refreshing to see how Amy needed time to work on herself and come to terms with some of the issues in her life before fully diving into the romantic dream of happily-ever-after with Charley. I also liked that Amy was, at first, reluctant to address her problems, something that strikes me as being authentic and also relatable. Then, when she finally did have the "aha!" moment of realizing where she'd gone wrong, and the things that perhaps she needed to work on fixing for herself and for those in her life, it was satisfying to go through the journey with her.

I do have a couple more nitpicks here, so I'll just go ahead and get them out of the way. These things mostly have to do with preference; I have no doubt that some of the issues that stopped me from fully loving this novel will pose no problem for other readers. Firstly, I think that this book takes on a little too much, and even with its 400 pages (which even seemed too long), it isn't able to fully or completely tackle all of the issues it wants to discuss. For example, there's a few meaningful conversations about what gay marriage equality means for the LGBT+ community, and how everyone in the community has different feelings towards it (whether or not it's another heteronormative trap, what it means for the future of equality rights, how it impacts things that straight people take for granted, like visitation rights at the hospital), but I'm not sure Dumond ever reaches any conclusions about it or gives these discussions the spotlight they really need. I think it's wonderful that she wanted to bring up all these topics, but I think it would've helped the book's pacing and tone if she'd cut some of it down.

Another problem I had was the (in my opinion) overusage of the term "queer." Sometimes the word was used when it would've been easier, and more poignant, to be specific: lesbian, gay, transgender, nonbinary, whatever it might've been. Although it's now a commonly used term and, for many, in no way offensive, it's a word that I think we should be use sparingly and with remembering how not so long ago, it was a slur, used to make LGBT+ people feel like outsiders, feel hated, afraid. Not everyone is comfortable with that term, and we'd do one another a favor if we thought of that before using it. It particularly made me cringe when characters used it in reference to older members of the LGBT+ community. I also thought it seemed a little strange and out-of-place when characters introduced themselves with their pronouns. I don't remember this being common in 2013; even now, people don't do it much in public spaces (LGBT or otherwise). We certainly should, and we should do our best to make others comfortable and use their pronouns of choice, but things like that made this book feel distinctly as if it were happening in 2022. 

All in all, I think that, for me, this book was firmly average. Lots of people will probably enjoy it, and I think it's fantastic to see a self-discovery journey that doesn't focus entirely on romance, but some of the issues were too pressing for me to become totally immersed. Dumond's writing is simplistic, pleasant to read, but often told us what was happening instead of actually allowing us to experience it.

Recommended if you love weddings, discussions of religious homophobia and the ways we can use religion positively, and happy endings!